Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Random Files On My Laptop

These are just a few random paragraphs. Sometimes I just write an idea down and then I forget about it. Yesterday I went through my files, looking for something else and found these.

I saw you. I saw you walking by my window. Once on a cold, fall day. I heard you talking on your cell phone. You laughed, so full and loud. I smiled. I smiled because I hoped that hone day you would be on your cell phone laughing with me on the other line. Though I know that day may not come, it was just a thought of a distant and unrealistic future. Just a hope. A dream. A passing thought of a past memory. You with that smile, that perfect smile. The fall leaves blowing past my window, which was framing my mind on that fall day. Full of rain and dreariness, you passed and suddenly the day was brighter, if just for a second. It was better. I know nothing of you; I don't even know your name. But you passed by my window, laughing, smiling, talking on your cell phone, and my day was good.

I am not always a good person, but I try my hardest to always set good examples sot hat others may not be me, but have the chance to be better. I have learned that parents lie, but only because telling the truth is not always the way to go with kids. I know that parents try, and I know that I have tried. But I can only try so hard before I can try no more. Life is hard. It's the truth. I do not like to admit my faults, my failures, my inabilities, and my unsuccessful life. No matter, I have continued to push myself past all obstacles nd do not give up so easily.

Some days the sky is falling. It's falling away. The stars only shine bright for so long, and then they fade away. The sky seems to be falling and it is falling on me. The wind is blowing its blowing and its blowing my mind away. All my thoughts are being carried on the windy waves away, away, away from me. The sky is turning dark as black and the wind is rising, it's rising. I stand here on this bluff and I wait for the time to fall. To fall, fall way with the sky and fade into the darkness like the stars. I would be carried on the windy waves and my thoughts would travel far.

Some days, you make me want to fly away. You make me want to fly so high, where the stars collide. Where the Moon and the Sun control the darkness and the light. I want to soar into the unknown and glide along the Milky Way of life, into another. You can come along too if you would like. I want to feel good inside, full of butterflies and sparkles and delight. I want to feel light and float through my life. I am me, and you are whoever you are. I feel light headed and free, full of happiness and elation and joy. I can't stop this smile from spreading across my face. Laughter escapes me. And I am drifting my way across this empty space of time and times times. I am.

These were originally ideas to start poems or short stories. One of them, though not posted, actually turned into a short story that I decided to continue and finish, using it as a piece for my portfolio last semester.

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